I look back to the day that I was diagnosed and my stomach still turns in knots and my mind is uncomfortable with this reflection, it wants to skip that part and the emotions that belong to it. I don’t have an photographic memory, but I remember everything about that moment even down to what I was wearing. Its one of those life changing moments when you instantly know life will never be the same again.
Quite often I meet people that have been newly diagnosed, they show the fear of the unknown in their eyes and their vulnerability is clear to see, waves of panic rush over them like waves in a raging storm. These feelings are ones I know and understand only to well.
I often say after every storm a rainbow will always appear, in fact this is one of my core beliefs. How can cancer become your rainbow? Because I refuse to let it become my enemy I feel if I do that I’m wasting my precious heartfelt emotions on something that doesn’t deserve it, And I deserve all my loving positive emotions to be used in a productive and empowering way as do my family and friends.
For most of my 20s (I was diagnosed when I was 25)
I was in total emotional turmoil and this upsets me because I lost out on so much because of cancer. I now choose and I say choose because it was a choice to use my experience and have the rainbow not just for myself but also for others.
I share my story in the hope that other people become aware of ovarian cancer and the symptoms, I share my story so newly diagnosed women have hope, I share my story because cancer cant talk it destroys, But I can talk and together with others we can make a difference in a world that sadly so many people and their families belong to.
It was a privilege to meet Gwyneth Strong (Actress and Ovarian Cancer Action Ambassador) for our interview on sky news, sadly she lost her mother 20 years ago to ovarian cancer, Gwyneth’s voice represents so many others who are in the same situation losing someone they love to this cancer. I am so grateful to Gwyneth for making such a huge difference with all her knowledge, hard work and determination to raise awareness for ovarian cancer.
Thank you to Sky News for supporting Ovarian Cancer Awareness month.
Who is the face of cancer? we are the face of cancer.
fiona
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